Eulogy to Pride
Pride, Pride, Pride
It’s very important that I say your name
I reek of your stench
Your essence slowly seeps out of me
My relationship with you is a slippery slope
But today is the day I tell you how I feel
Today is the day I look at you for who you truly are
Today, I depart from you
Pride
You are the demon in my life
You are what separates me from God
You have held me in your embrace for far too long
You are my oldest friend
We met, We became friends when I was eight
You were the only thing that kept me away from self-hate
When kids words cut skin deep
You are the reason I didn’t drown
So from there, I walked with you, I grew with you, I even loved you
But that’s when I began to cut others
When I began to push them below the surface
You see, I thought you were someone else
I thought you were confidence
I thought you made me better
But I was wrong
You are full of deceit
This is an imitation game you put on repeat
It isn’t fooling me anymore
Rather than building others up, you cut them down
The worst part of our relationship is the silent suffering
Your embrace turns into a choke hold
It’s like a prison cell and I’m watching through cell bars
My mouth is covered shut
You keep me from apologizing
You prevent me from admitting I’m wrong
You stop me from confessing that I need help
You encourage me to boast
You influence me to cover up my lies
I am tired of loading the clip with self validation
I am tired of shooting to kill my own relationships
I am tired of processing the crime scene as if I wasn’t the shooter
Pride, You have ruined enough
You are not welcome here
Gone are the times I turned to you
I am not that eight year old boy anymore
I don’t want anything thing to do with the demon
I want to rid myself of this sin
It is past time I reconcile with God
Today is the day I tell you how I feel
Today is the day I look at you for who you truly are
Today, I depart from you
And today is the day that I associate with others
Humility, Humility, Humility
It’s very important that I learn your name
I’ve longed for your presence, for your company
This friendship with you is new, but your traits… your traits are true
My mouth is finally liberated
You implore me to apologize
You even admit when you’re wrong
You have the courage to confess that you need help
You celebrate the accomplishments of others, rather than boast your own
You put others before yourself
You even recognize and acknowledge your limitations
So from now on,
I will walk with humility, I will grow with her
So to Humility I say
Today is the day I sever my ties with Pride
Today is the day I start to see you in me
Today, I will walk, I will grow, and I will love you
Thank You
